Remembering What Was Always There: My Journey Into Spiritual Awakening
When Letting Go Opens the Door to Your Gifts
Your gifts don’t appear when you ‘do enough’ — they reveal themselves when you’re willing to look at your own emotions.”
People often ask me: “When did your spiritual gifts start?”
For years I didn’t know how to answer.
Looking back now, I see they were there all along not as lightning bolts, but as quiet whispers.
Channeling in the Corporate World (Without Knowing It)
In my early thirties, I was a high-performing employee . I prided myself on being reliable, calm under pressure, and the person who always knew the right thing to say.
I’d mentor new employees or support someone going through something rough at work. Words of comfort and clarity would pour out of me effortlessly. Then, minutes later, I couldn’t remember what I’d said.
At the time, I thought:
“Am I a bad employee?
Am I distracted?
Why can’t I remember?”
Now I know: I was channeling intuitively delivering what someone needed without even realizing it.
I had no idea my “mentoring style” was actually an early expression of my gifts.
The Turning Point: Emotions & Awakening
Eventually, my inner world caught up with me.
I went from being a super high-performing employee to barely functioning, drinking lots of alcohol to try and escape. My body was stuck in fight-or-flight.
Through therapy, I began to realize how little I understood emotions mine or anyone else’s. I discovered the SUDS scale (Subjective Units of Distress Scale), which measures emotional intensity from 0–10.
I thought everyone went from calm to explosive in an instant. I didn’t know most people could actually feel the gradations in between. I believed it was our job to keep other people from exploding, not to understand our own feelings.
This was my first lesson: emotions have a scale, a rhythm, an energy.
You can’t bypass them. You can only learn to feel and transmute them.
I pledged then to teach people about emotions, but I stayed in corporate life. I told myself, “If I know my triggers, I can manage them.” But knowing isn’t the same as healing, which led me down a series of relationships that seemed to get worse and not better.
A Puppy, a Family, and a Higher Calling
Several years ago, I volunteered with a puppy rescue and fell in love with one tiny, fragile soul. I wanted so badly to keep her but deep down, I knew she didn’t align with my life of where I wanted to be.
I was craving freedom, adventure, and expansion, and caring for a new puppy would have required me to shrink my world.
That realization was my first lesson in energetic alignment how the body tells the truth long before the mind admits it.
Letting her go broke my heart, but it also brought her exactly where she was meant to be with a family who had just lost their father and needed a new heartbeat in the home. (the full puppy story here)
That night, as I cried myself to sleep, I felt a presence in my room.
A man, gentle and calm, standing near the corner of my bed.
A message arrived as soft as a breath:
“Thank you for helping my family.”
Even then, I didn’t fully understand what had happened — but I knew it was real.
I had opened to a level of sensitivity that couldn’t be reasoned away.
From Subconscious Coaching to Alignment Codes
Nearly ten years later from the corporate burnout at KPMG in my mid twenties, I was still running patterns especially in relationships. I kept dating men who weren’t good for me. I knew I shouldn’t be with a gambling addict, but I kept taking him back.
That realization sent me deep into subconscious coaching and attachment work, exploring resources like How We Love by Milan and Kay Yerkovich to understand my own attachment style.
It was the first time I saw how my early conditioning shaped who I chose and how unresolved emotions keep recreating familiar dynamics.
Working with the subconscious felt safe and grounded enough for me to start healing. From there, I began transmuting my own trauma, making aligned decisions, and gradually stepping into the energetic and intuitive work that had always been calling me.
Understanding emotions became the bridge. It allowed me to play with energy instead of fearing it to bring more lightness, curiosity, and flow into everything I do.
Maui & My Dream Life: Gifts in Full Bloom
Fast-forward to now: I’m living my dream life on Maui, offering Maui Energy Healing sessions and guiding others to trust their intuition, process emotions, and reconnect to their gifts.
The subtleties that were once background noise now flow like ocean waves.
“When you reawaken your gifts, you realize they’ve always been there waiting for your ‘yes.’”
This is why my work blends energy healing with emotional alchemy. Because awakening isn’t about “psychic” abilities — it’s about transmuting your own trauma and making aligned decisions so your natural gifts can emerge.
I help people reconnect to the subtle signals of their own intuition — the same way I learned to.
It’s not about becoming “more psychic.”
It’s about becoming more embodied.
The puppy story was never just about loss — it was about alignment, surrender, and trust.
By honoring my own values, I made space for something greater: a deeper purpose, a healed family, and the awakening of my own gifts.
Your Reflection: Are Your Gifts Whispering to You?
If you’re reading this and thinking, “That sounds like me,” here’s a gentle invitation:
Look back: When was the first time you sensed something you couldn’t explain?
Notice your body: Where do emotions or “nudges” show up for you physically?
Give yourself permission: You don’t have to understand it all to start trusting it.
These small acknowledgements are how your gifts grow from subtle to steady.
Closing Thoughts
Awakening isn’t about becoming someone new — it’s about remembering what’s always been inside you.
If you’re ready to explore your gifts more deeply, I’d be honored to guide you. Through Maui Energy Healing sessions (in person or virtual), group events, or my Alignment Codes framework, we’ll help you process emotions and reawaken your natural intuition.
With Love,
Christin - Your West Maui Energy Healer